what is my knee-jerk reaction?

I’ve often heard it said that hindsight is 20/20.  I completely agree.

A couple of weeks ago, I was reading through old journals and was able to see where I have grown in my understanding of a very real struggle in our life throughout the years.

That struggle is my response to our financial/material circumstances.  I have often had a “knee-jerk reaction” to the times when I feel our family has a “need” and I cannot see how in the world it will be met.  My natural inclination was to panic, and try to figure out how to bring in more money to our household.

While I think that supplementing the family income can be a wonderful thing, I have my doubts that doing so because of a “knee-jerk reaction” is a wise way to go about it.

These are a few things I have learned, especially in this past year, that have changed my perspective on how to respond to our family’s “needs”.

  1. God is our ultimate source of provision.  He might use our career, He might use our creativity and hard work, He might use our church family, or He might use a stranger or a situation to provide what we need.
  2. I have had to redefine “need”.  While I might think that we need a large bag of yummy looking fresh fruit for our family, I have learned that sometimes that need is met by receiving a batch of pears that are almost “gone” and picking through, cutting off the rotten spots and using the good parts.  Maybe they won’t receive a whole pear each, but instead, they get chunks of pear to eat with their yogurt.  Instead of “needing” a whole loaf of French bread to go with soup, I can use just a couple of crusty rolls by slicing them, drizzling with olive oil and toasting under the broiler.  It is sufficient-and pretty darn nice, if you ask me!  Maybe instead of purchasing brand new gifts for our boys this Christmas, we will be able to find them each a gift from one of the thrift stores in our area.  Maybe we don’t need to keep the thermostat at 65 to keep the house warm, but we can stay warm by lowering the thermostat and wearing an extra layer (or two!).
  3. I need to feel confident in the role I play in my household.  We have chosen to be a one income family so that I could stay home and take care of the children and the house.  I fully embrace the fact that Chris’ role is to bring in the paycheck, and I get to stretch it as far as it will go.  I think that having confidence in the role that I have chosen helps me avoid the “knee-jerk” reaction of thinking it is my responsibility to bring in more income.  When those times come that I am paying bills and buying groceries and I don’t see how to make things work, I pray for creativity as I juggle our budget and take one day at a time.
  4. The one day at time concept is one that I learned this past year while we were unemployed for several months.  I am a planner.  And while this can often be a good thing, it has often interfered in my ability (and choice) to trust in God’s daily provision.  If we need dish soap today, I will go ahead and purchase it.  I no longer stress that if I purchase what I need today that I won’t be able to get what we might need next week.  He has never failed to provide exactly what we need, and just when we need it!  We often turned to Matthew 6:25-34

“That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing?  Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are?  Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?

 “And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing,  yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are.  And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?

 “So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’  These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs.  Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

“So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.

I also love this passage from the chapter of Proverbs, verse 8-9

    “Second, give me neither poverty nor riches!
    Give me just enough to satisfy my needs.
For if I grow rich, I may deny you and say,“Who is the Lord?”
    And if I am too poor, I may steal and thus insult God’s holy name.”

It all boils down to trust.  When we find ourselves in a seemingly impossible place, between our income and our needs, I no longer experience the knee-jerk reaction of panic and scrambling for what I think we need.  Trust in who God is and what He does keeps me hanging on even tighter to my role as homemaker and ask for the creativity and perseverance that I need to accomplish what He wants me to accomplish.  As I focus on being here for my boys and taking care of our home, He has never failed to take care of us, nor will He ever!


{consider it pure joy}

Saturday, August 31, 2013

On Wednesday, Chris came home from work in the middle of the morning.  After being with the company for 16 years, he was let go. Tears were shed and Scripture was read.  We prayed and we talked.  We went to church for the evening service and baptism and our hearts were filled with courage.

Chris is relieved to be no longer be at this company and excited about serving God full-time.  Just last week, he prayed and told God that he wasn’t going to give up and that if God wanted him to do something different, He would have to move Chris from this job.

Lord, this is what you want, right?  Chris has wanted to be in full time ministry for so many years.  We believe that you took away this job so that he could serve you in a different capacity.  We’re just not sure how, when or where.

At this point, I feel unable to think.  I’m not sure what I am supposed to be doing.  Moving or not moving?  School or no school?  In state or out of state?

James 1:2-8
                            Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds,
because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.  Let
finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.  If any of you
lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives to all without finding fault, and it will be
given to you.  But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts
is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.  Those who doubt should not think they 
will receive anything from the Lord; they are double-minded and unstable in all they do.
Psalm 62
Truly, my heart finds rest in God alone-I will not be shaken-trust in Him at all times.
Psalm 67
May God be gracious to us and bless us and make His face shine on us-SO THAT
Your ways may be known on earth, your salvation among all nations.
Psalm 106:13
But they soon forgot what He had done and did not wait for His plan to unfold.  


Foster Care

I was sitting in front of my computer, reading the daily news.  One of the top stories that day was about a foster family in Milwaukee.  An infant had been placed into their care.  And the foster mother killed this baby.  I don’t remember any other details.  But I remember my response.  I sobbed.  Here was a tiny baby, killed in the home where it was placed in order to be safe.  My heart was broken.

That day, a few years ago, is imprinted on my mind…and on my heart.

It led us to start looking into foster care.  We got together with some good friends of ours who had done it for several years.  They were so good about answering our questions, being realistic about the joys and hardships of fostering.  One day, I ran into a snag…our house wasn’t big enough.  (the laws don’t require that much space, but I admit, our house did seem to be crowded with just the seven of us in it.)  So, we shelved that idea, understanding that God obviously did not intend that for us at that time.

Fast forward a few years, and here we are, living in a different city and a different (and larger) home.  God has still been impressing on our hearts the need for foster care.  But this time, He is showing us that He has given us the means to meet that need.  Maybe not  money and material goods, but we have the space, the lifestyle and the love to do it!

At the very beginning of this journey, it was I who was prompted to look into foster care.  I would not do something without my husband’s full approval, and while he did agree with us doing this,  it was more of a head thing than a heart thing.  He was unsure that he would be able to truly love a child that was not biologically his.  But God allowed us an experience to test Chris’ thinking in that area.

My cousin lives in the same city we do.  And NOT by chance, I fully believe it is of God.  Shortly after we moved, she gave birth to a baby boy and needed someone to watch him.  We offered, and she took us up on our offer.  We have loved having Baby K with us.  The boys are so good about playing with him, and Michaela has taken on much of the responsibility of caring for him.  And Chris has learned that yes, he can love a little one, even if they aren’t biologically his.  He has a huge capacity to love…especially children.

Several weeks ago, I made the call to our county social worker and started the process of applying for our foster license.  It is long road ahead, and we have just started this journey.  We are hoping and praying that our licensing will come through by the end of the year.  Our license will cover children from birth to 18, but we will primarily be taking little ones up to 2 years old.  At this season of our life, while most of our children are still doing school at home, taking care of a baby makes the most sense.  Lately, I’ve been doing a lot of school with the kids while Baby K is on my lap or in the pack and play with his toys!

I have started collecting items that we will need to care for little ones.  I was just talking to my friend, Amy, the other day about how “what we need for the baby” changes as we get older~and dare I say, wiser?  Some of what we used to deem “necessary” just isn’t necessary anymore.  A few good quality items will do, thank you!

Another dear friend, Alaina, put out a request on Facebook for items that her friends didn’t need anymore.  We have received a convertible car seat, a carrier that I can use to “wear” a baby, and some items of clothing.  I will continue searching for clothing in a variety of sizes, and a few more items that we’ll be able to use)

Because of having Baby K’s pack-n-play, exersaucer and high chair around, it doesn’t seem much more odd having these baby things collecting in a pile in the den!

I write all this now because, once we have little ones, we are bound by privacy laws and we won’t be talking about it.  I want people to understand why we are doing this, and also that there is a need for families to do foster care.

Let me restate: I want to give people the chance to understand.  I do not expect everyone to understand.

“Why would you add a baby to your already (by some standards) large family?”  “Why would you add the expense of another child?”  “Should you be doing this with your back issues?”  “What about doing school with the children?”  “You want to go back to middle-of-the-night feedings?”  “You know it’s going to be hard, don’t you?”

Our response:

We are trusting God to control the amount of children that we have in our family.  Whether biological or fostered, I have faith that He knows, way better than we do, what we can handle.

We trust that God will supply all of our needs according to His riches in glory.  We are taking a step of faith, and we know that He will provide.

Yes, my back does act up sometimes.  But it continues to heal, sometimes more slowly than I’d like, but for the most part, I can function just fine!
But thank you for caring!

As I have mentioned before, it is possible to do school with a baby in my arms.  I’ve done it before, and I can do it again.  I am certainly not the only mother to school their children with an infant or toddler in the home!

Middle-of-the-night feedings…do I want to go back to them?  Honestly.  No!!  I like my sleep.  But will I, for the sake of loving a precious little one that Jesus has put into our home?  You betcha!  By the grace and strength of God, I will love someone else more than myself.  I will consider myself a servant to every person in my home.

And yes, I know it is going to be hard.  I don’t want to live a “comfortable” life.  I always want to be in a place where I am dependent on Christ.  I want to live a life that cannot be explained other than by His Holy Spirit living in me and through me.  I often tell my children that hard things are the things worth doing.  God is giving me another opportunity to live out what I say I believe.  Our pastor has been teaching about faith, and I am so excited that we have an opportunity to exercise our faith.  Thank you, Jesus!

I’m sure that more questions will arise, and that some people (probably including me, at times) will think that we are nuts!  I don’t know exactly what the future holds for us, but I do want you to be aware of what’s new in our life, so that when the day comes, you understand the story a little better!

The beauty of dawn…

I love early mornings.  I love watching the sun rise and the world wake up.

Indiana (photo by Matt Mayer)

This morning, during my Bible Study, the reason why I love those moments came to me.

It reminds me of the promises of God.  It links me to the covenant that God make with Noah.  The comfort that Jeremiah and David took  in God’s character-in who He is.

“As long as earth endures,

seedtime and harvest,

cold and heat,

summer and winter,

day and night

will never cease.”

Genesis 8:22

Missouri (photo by Michaela Tittle)

“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail.  They are new every morning. Great is Your faithfulness.” Lamentations 3:22

“…weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.” Psalm 30:5

Sheboygan (photo by Terri Balint)

I am hoping that you seize the next chance you get to watch the sun come up and see the beginning of a new day.  I pray that you will know in your heart that He is God, who keeps His promises to us, who renews His mercies to us, and who waits with us for the rejoicing that comes after the (sometimes long and difficult) night.

Living by the Spirit

My sincere apologies for disappearing like I did.  I was gonna write out my past couple of weeks, but I think I can sum it all up by saying I am busy.  The “swamped” kind of busy that you know if you just hold on, things will slow down.  I’m sure you know the kind I am talking about.

I  am still working on getting ready for the rummage sale, and things are going well.  Today I am working on my den, which is pretty much my office and the schoolroom.  So, in addition to simplifying, I am also sorting through the children’s school stuff and packing up schoolbooks to send back to k12.

Two weeks ago, I started attending a Bible study at church.  We are studying Living Beyond Yourselves by Beth Moore.  I’ve done it before, and I really liked it.  But this time, I really need it.  She is teaching about the Holy Spirit, His role in our daily lives, and the fruit that we bear as evidence that He is at work in us.

As I’ve been working on collecting things for this rummage sale, I think I lost focus for a little while, and I was much less loving, joyful, peaceful, patient, etc. with my entire family.  How desperately I need to be completely emptied of myself and filled with Him in order to produce that fruit.

Last night, she shared “Through the fruit in my life, the world will taste and see that the Lord is good.”  While I do want the world to see Him in my life, I can’t help but think of it this way.

“Through the fruit in my life, my children will taste and see that the Lord is good.”

So, I continue on with going through the house, getting ready for this rummage sale, emptying myself of me,  being filled with Him, and trusting that He has something good in store for us.

Eventually, I will get back to regular posting, but not for about a month yet.  Lots of fun things happening in the next few weeks.  The rummage sale, my sister and her family coming up to visit, my other sister getting married, another sister trying to sell her house, and a family vacation (all six siblings and our families going to MO where my parents live) over the 4th of July week!!

Here is the verse from our Bible Study homework today:

“So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature.”  Galatians 5:1

While there are days that doing this feels so hard, it truly is simple.  I am not given a huge, long list of things to do or not to do.  Just one thing…Live by the Spirit.  And the fact that He is ready and willing to live in us and through us…that, my friends, is truly amazing!

So, on this lovely June day, I pray that you are encouraged and blessed in Him!

it’s like getting a new book…

When I receive a new book, the first thing I do is skim through it and read through the Table of Contents.  With (in)RL, I feel exactly like God gave me a new book, and I’ve only had the opportunity to skim through the pages and eagerly look over the contents.  While I cannot even begin to tell you all that lays in those pages, I can tell you that it will be life changing.

In my mind, thoughts race around.  I am trying to find words to describe what the (in)RL conference was like.  I know that so many powerful points were made, and  I made mental note of all that I wanted to meditate on, but now, only two days later, I feel the weight of every day responsibilities shoving out those precious thoughts.  I need to slow down and revisit my notes and ask God to remind me what He was trying to say to me.  Maybe I will simply take it one week at a time, sharing what God spoke to my heart in each of the sessions.

I have been deeply touched by Sara’s life.  Some of the phrases used to describe her were “intentional about loving others”, “wholly cared for people” and “choose joy”.   Even this morning, I was reminded that I could choose joy.  (just so you know, I did.  Who wants to be “gloomy girl” when bringing lunch to her hubby at work, right?)  I was  challenged to live life with one foot here and the other in heaven.  I keep asking myself, “if I knew that Jesus would return tomorrow, what would I do today?”

Another point that landed deep in my heart was made by Bonnie, who defined community as “a challenge to stay”.  To stay in the moment and let each other “be”, whatever it is that they need to “be” at that time.  Love doesn’t bail, love says “I’m gonna stay in the moment long enough to see God work.”  I needed to hear that, oh, my heart truly needed to heart that.

I’m sorry that I can’t seem to find the perfect words to sum up this beautiful weekend.  I will admit that I am a bit envious of those that can so quickly put their thoughts into words.  I realize that processing “heart thoughts” is not something that I can ever do quickly, and I suppose that God gave me “molasses” brain for some good reason!

I just read that there will be a DVD set and study booklet available, if learning more about women & community is something on your heart, you can get more information here.  If you do get a copy, let me know.  I’d love to absorb all these heart lessons along with you!

the Healer

It occurs to me that everytime I write about something difficult or painful, I want to title it “Change”. Hmmm, what does this tell you about me?

I used to like change. Not so much anymore. Ugh, what a stubborn, inflexible person I can be.

As you know, I had back surgery in January. I had an almost entirely degenerated disc, and the little bit that was left was herniated, so I had that all fixed up. My surgeon, who is one of the best spine surgeons in the country, told me that 90% of his patients feel tremendous relief after the surgery, and the other 10% remain the same. There was no number given, but I had read that only a very small percentage have negative results.

Well, as time has gone on, the pain has not decreased. As my 12 week appointment drew closer, the pain actually increased. I felt bad telling my doctor. But I did, and he sent me back to another doctor for an injection in my SI (sacro-illiac) joint. Apparently, it is not uncommon for secondary issues to pop up after spine surgery like mine. I had the injection seven days ago. (and boy howdy, did that sucker hurt!) I was told by my spine surgeon that if it was my SI joint, we would know right away because I would have immediate relief. The doctor who did the injection said it might take a couple of days. I have also heard from friends who said it took a month for them to experience any relief.

Days go by, and I wake up, hoping to find that I can move a little easier. But every morning, I wake up and the pain is a bit worse. I am finding it hard to do the things which I was even doing two weeks ago.

Which makes me wonder if life is changing for me. I mean, what if I am becoming very limited in the activities that I will actually be able to do? What if I can’t do any of the things which I love to do, and used to do all the time? What if I can never stand more than a 1/2 hour at a time? What if I can’t bend over any more? What if I can never pick up a baby again? Or go on a hike? Or help somebody move? or wash dishes or scrub my kitchen floor?

I realize that this might sound ridiculous to some. There might be a day when I look back and it sounds ridiculous to me, but right now, this is where I am.

Honestly and sincerely, I have questioned what my purpose and life and ministry is supposed to look like if my back doesn’t heal. I have cried. I have doubted. I have been angry. I have been hopeless.

and I have been humbled.

I haven’t sung in choir since November, and two weeks ago, I thought I was ready to go back. But then I had that injection, and as things got worse, I began to question whether or not I should even try it. But Thursday evening came around, and I felt like I was being prompted by the Holy Spirit to go. It was wonderful getting to see everyone, but the most precious moment came at the end of the evening, when we were going over the very last song.

The song is called “Healer”, and as we began practicing it, I was thinking about my physical healing. I don’t even remember if we went through it a second time, or if it was still the first time, but (you can ask anyone in that room) the Spirit of God filled that room and I don’t know about anyone else, but He pricked my heart. I began to think, not of the healing of my back, but of healing from the fear, the anger, the doubt and hopelessness in God and His perfect plan for me.

I still don’t know what that plan is, but I know that whatever He has in store, it is good. Maybe the way I serve my family won’t look exactly like it used to. Maybe I won’t be able to serve my church family the way I would like to. But He has begun to give me ideas of things I am able to do, if I am willing to change. Let me rephrase, He is giving me ideas of things that He is able to through me, if I am willing to change. And since I am willing, and nothing is impossible with Him, I believe that there are good things in the future! As you listen to this song, I pray it will bless your heart, as it did mine. He is trustworthy…He is all we need!

Catching up!

My computer has been at the “computer hospital” for over a month now. And probably a couple more weeks before I get it back. They fixed the original problem, but when my husband went to pick it up from the store, we found out that they had put on a defective keyboard. And they actually thought we would be okay with that! Umm, no. Not okay with that. At. all. So, we sent it back and they told us it would take about two weeks to get it back (but that is also the time frame they gave us the first time it was sent out!) I am trying (and often failing) to be patient…

In this past month, I have come to realize how much I rely on the computer. I balance our checking account, pay bills, use recipes, communicate with people, listen to music, check the weather, shop the local grocery store ads, get directions for places, and more… In addition, our children’s schooling is all online, so I’ve been trying to share their computers with them at the same time they are trying to do their lessons-not exactly convenient.

All this to say, I am thrilled that my husband found me an unused computer at his work place that I can borrow until I get mine back from the store! It has been wonderful! I feel connected and able to do my “job” now that I have this tool in my hands.

It has been over a month since I wrote last, but it feels like much longer. Some of the things that have happened are…

our youngest son celebrated his 11th birthday-I really love that kid-so thankful to God for him!

all my kids went in to the dentist and only two came out with cavities. Yes, the goal is zero cavities, but it was an improvement from the last visit-so I was happy. We found a dentist that we really love. I thought I would never find someone as good as our previous dentist, but Dr. Luther and his office staff are amazing!

my daughter and I went down to Wauwatosa to pick up my mom, who came up for a short visit. We spent the night down there, with some friends of my parents that I hadn’t seen in years. It was so nice getting to visit with them. On our way home, we stopped at the outlet mall in Oshkosh, where I purchased a 14″ stainless steel skillet that I’ve been thinking about for several months-I am loving it!

this is what I have learned about stainless steel cookware. I do not need the heat near as high as I do in my hard anodized cookware (learned that one the hard way), and so far, it cleans up beautifully! (Tip from my mom: if needing to clean a pan that has lots of hard, cooked on food, place a clean dryer sheet in the pan with some warm water. Let is soak for a while, in our case, overnight. The next morning, it will wash up beautifully!) We’ve only needed the dryer sheet method once-since I discovered the whole “lower heat” thing!

for spring break, we went down to visit my siblings in Indiana. And it was so. much. fun. I have been so blessed to live nearby two of my sisters since we first moved back to Wisconsin. But one sister lives in Indiana. And while we try to get together at least once a year, it is not nearly enough. It was just wonderful getting to spend that time with her. So between our girlie visits and fun times spent with my brothers and their wonderful wives and kids, we had a week that was absolutely heavenly. And I mean it-I cannot wait until we have all of eternity to be together!

my kids are doing great in school…we are scheduled to be done around the end of May. I think that all of us are looking forward to summer break.

we continue to watch my cousin’s baby boy, who is absolutely precious! The kids are so good about picking him up and handing him to me, since my back doesn’t allow for that right now. He is smiley and talkative, and he loves his cousins!

my back continues to heal, more slowly than I would like. It truly has been a patience-producer. There are so many things that I want to do (simple things…like reaching into my cabinets, or grocery shopping, or scrubbing the shower!) that I cannot yet do. My physical therapist says that I am doing great, right on schedule, and that I will soon see the light at the end of the tunnel. So, I just keep plugging away at my therapy, and trusting that God knows how long this healing process will take.

Through all these past several weeks, I have pondered so much what eternity will be like. Knowing that the best that this earth has to offer, whether in loving relationships or the beautiful creation around us, is nothing compared to the glorious new heaven and earth that await us. It is just something that I love to think about, and that encourages my heart many times a day!

Their are two holidays that I love…and by that I do mean holy days. One is Thanksgiving-not mandated by God, but certainly a time that I love to reflect on His faithfulness. The other is this week-this Holy week. I cannot help but get goosebumps, tears in my eyes and a heart that feels like it will burst when I contemplate what Christ did for me.. The cross~I think that is where the tears come in . But the goosebumps and bursting heart…how can you think of that glorious morning when He rose from the grave, conquering death itself, without being in awe?

I wonder how many more Easter Sundays we will celebrate before we are taken up into heaven and get to see those precious nail-pierced hands and feet. I cannot think about that without tearing up. Oh, come quickly, Lord Jesus.

I know these thoughts are a bit random and scattered, that is truly a reflection of this woman’s life right now. A lot going on, but desperately wanting Him to always be in every detail.

His Eye is on the Sparrow

Why should I be discouraged
why should the shadows come
why should my heart be lonely
and long for heav’n and home,
when Jesus is my portion?
My constant friend is He;
His eye is on the sparrow
and I know He watches me.

It is hard to write about the painful things in life. But we know they will come. In John 16:33, it says,

“I have said these things to you,
that in Me you may have peace.
In the world
you will have tribulation.
But take heart,
I have overcome the world.”

He tells us, as Christ-followers, to expect difficult times. Now I can understand some of the hard things that might come our way, being mocked at work because of taking a stance with Christ, losing friends or family members because of accepting Jesus as Lord of our life, being persecuted, tortured or even losing our lives for the sake of the Truth.

But what about the times when the source of difficulty is completely unexpected? When we are fired without just cause? when we lose a dear friend? when our integrity is questioned? How do we handle it when the rug is pulled out from under us?

“Let not your heart be troubled”
His tender voice I hear,
and resting in His goodness,
I lose my doubt and fear;
tho’ by the path He leadeth
but one step I may see:
His eye is on the sparrow,
and I know he watches me.

I was walking through my living room this morning, opening curtains and feeling saddened by the sinfulness of this world, the hate, the selfishness, the anger that drives people apart, and I decided to try sitting at the piano. I haven’t done this much since my back surgery, as it has been a bit uncomfortable. But I’m so glad that I tried it this morning. I do believe that it was God that prompted me to sit down, and open my old hymnal, because He had something He wanted to remind me of.

Whenever I am tempted
whenever clouds arise,
when songs give place to sighing,
when hope within me dies,
I draw the closer to Him,
from care He sets me free;
His eye is on the sparrow,
and I know He cares for me.

When the rug is pulled out from under us, and we find ourselves lying on our backs, in pain and vulnerable, we should find ourselves looking up…into the the wonderful face of Jesus. He will never leave us or forsake us, His eye is constantly upon us, even more than the tiny sparrow that flies about. (Hebrews 13:5, Psalm 32:8, Luke 12:6-7)

He has promised a multitude of things to us, and when we start remembering them, we can be comforted. To have the Lord of All, the One who is Truth and Peace and Love, to be on our side, loving and caring for us, our heart can be at rest. If He is for us, who can be against us?

Lord, comfort us with your Truth, Your Peace, Your love.

While I love this song, I wish the word were changed from “I sing because I’m happy” to “I sing because I’m joyful”…sometimes I don’t feel “happiness”, but I am full of joy-because of the very things the song speaks of!

Resting in His Providence

“LORD, You have assigned me my portion and my cup; You have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance.

I will praise the LORD, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I keep my eyes always on the LORD. With Him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
Therefore, my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body will also rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead, nor will You let Your faithful one see decay. You make known to me the path of life; You will fill me with joy in Your presence, with eternal pleasures at Your right hand.”
Psalm 16:5-11