It is good to write that my heart is healing.
It is resting even deeper in the love and sovereignty of God.
This morning, as I am laying here, I look outside and see the sun shining and the trees with their little green buds. A cool breeze is blowing, and I hear birds singing and wind chimes ringing.
“Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.”
We continue to check days off the calendar. Further and further from what was before, and moving one day closer to eternity. Chris has continued to put in applications at dozens of different places in Indiana, Wisconsin, Missouri, Kentucky, and Arkansas. But what God has given him right now is a part-time position at Charter Communications. It is only a three month position, but it is filling our days and allowing us to pay the bills, so we are content with that. He has been able to continue his lessons for his Biblical counseling certificate, and I am thankful that he has had the time for that.
The boys are continuing to like this school, and I cannot even express how happy that makes me. Alex received the first place award in his cooking class for an ice cream contest, making horchata ice cream with coffee caramel sauce. His class does catering for the school and community, and he really likes that. William enjoys doing air-soft with friends that also live here at the training center. He usually plays soccer with the students here every week. We just learned that both of the boys will be able to get their temps and start driving, so they are excited about that. (Yikes-can’t believe that time is here already!)
Max is as friendly and talkative as ever. He has been reading more lately, which makes this mama’s heart happy. And whenever he gets a chance to go “air-softing” with friends from here on campus, he takes that opportunity. Miles also enjoys going out and doing air-soft, and he has started to enjoy running.
All four of the boys have been taking turns making a meal once a week, and it is fun to see what kind of meals they choose to make and the satisfaction of feeding their family. We continue to have good family discussions as we work through the emotions that have surfaced over the past few months. It is a good thing to be able to talk about these things and how they relate to God, and our beliefs about Him.
My sister came home last week from Papua New Guinea, where she served as a missionary for a year. Aside from the fact that I love being with her, laughing and talking, it is so good to hear her stories of God’s faithfulness and to see the way that God has led her step by step as she seeks to follow Him. I cannot wait to see where He is leading her to serve next!
As far as God leading Chris and I, we are beginning to get a sense of what He may have in mind. Just the way that He has closed doors, and reminded us of our gifts and experiences and passions, we are sensing that maybe our life from this point forward is going to be different than it was in the past. A different career, a different place, a different lifestyle…we aren’t quite sure of the destination, but I think we are facing the right direction now. We have ideas and hopes and dreams, but there are some pretty significant roadblocks that would need to be removed, and of course, we know that He can and will remove those in accordance with His plan for us. I would sincerely love your prayers as we seek His intended area of ministry for us.
My heart is finally catching up with what my mind knows to be true. And yes, there are days that there is pain and tears, but being able to go to the source of that and remind myself of the truth, I can cry and give it to Him, rather than cry and hold onto the pain. He is sovereign and He is trustworthy and He is pouring out His goodness on me. Resting in just those few of the beautiful truths about Him, my heart is centering on Him. Because of His grace-His sacrifice on the cross, knowing there was no way that we could pay the penalty for our sin, we can find peace in Him. And that’s a promise that offers healing.
“To all those who are loved by God and called to be saints: Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.”